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Home Director’s Statement

“I have arrived. I am home. My destination is in each step.” – Thich Nhat Hanh

As we were creating this series, we began with asking one simple question to any person that crossed our path. That question was,

“What does ‘home’ mean to you?”

The answers, though they all inevitably varied in description, tone, and personality, taught us this:

Home is many different things depending who you're talking to. To some, it is a physical location, to others, a nostalgia that only exists in dreams. For others, it’s the memories of a time of earnest love and safety. Some find it in religion, traditions, or stories that connect them to a lineage, a holiness, or a purpose. Many say home isn’t a ‘thing’ at all — it’s the people you surround yourself with. People who make you feel accepted, cherished, and seen. It’s loved ones that are there for you and you for them. It’s family, whether it’s one that you were born into, one you chose, or one that chose you. No matter the interpretations it seems to always come back to a sense that one belongs.

We all have this expansive longing to belong. We are all looking for a sanctuary in this world. This pursuit is full of folly and beauty and we love it, which is why we decided to make this show.

So, who are we? We are Micah and Keylee Sudduth. We are a team of indie filmmakers from Texas, who also happen to be millennials, who also happen to be married. We both have been searching for a sense of home, a sense of belonging, our whole lives. Our childhoods were sort of case-studies on all the different ways this search impacts people, and families. We both come from families that have a history of suicidal tendencies and mental illness. We were both raised by mothers with bipolar disorder, who did their best, but also gifted us serious wounds about our own worth as a result of their erratic and at times very unsafe behaviors. We both also grew up in extremely conservative and religious households. Micah is the son of a non-denominational pastor and I spent my teenage years in a mega-church that’s like, basically a cult. (Actually, it is. It’s definitely a cult.) We are both children of divorce. We’ve both struggled with a sense of fear about our mental states, we’ve both deeply questioned the religious beliefs that were taught to us, we’ve both desperately searched for a sense of belonging. Miraculously, we both were able to find not only each other but within ourselves the strength to leave behind the illusion of safety and familiarity in pursuit of passion.

We moved away from the comforts of home in Texas to pursue our greater dreams in the city of Los Angeles in 2012. We spent years running around like chickens with our heads cut off, as we tried to secure jobs that would pay the bills (and our token millennial accessory: student loan debt), a place to live that we could afford, and the occasional opportunity to do what made us feel most alive: create art. While doing all of that, we were also navigating a brand new and extremely naive marriage and our separate bouts of depression. We struggled with feeling isolated, alienated, purposeless, and alone. But we had each other, we had access to therapy, medical marijuana cards, and the internet. All of those things saved us.

And that’s what this show is about.

This show loosely chronicles our first years of marriage in the city of LA, as we tried to find the strength within ourselves to stay here. You’ll see our characters navigate the pressures of family that are trying to pull us back to Texas, the pressures we put on ourselves to be perfect, and the life-saving relationships and love that kept us afloat.

Our faith is that Home will resonate with others because— it’s us. It’s our biggest fears, greatest hopes and most embarrassing moments, shared with you in a world born out of pure authenticity and passion. Much like some of our favorite creators, The Duplass Brothers, Tig Notaro, Jessie Kahnweiler, Issa Rae, Mike Birbiglia, Pete Holmes, Frankie Shaw, we chose to lay bare our vulnerabilities in good faith that the result will be something so authentic, so raw, awkward, funny, and heart-breaking, that you don’t forget it.

Thank you for taking the time to read about our project. We believe stories are medicine and it was an honor to share our story of “Home” with you.

With gratitude,

Keylee and Micah Sudduth